We were too young too attempt such a thing. All our lives we wanted to be older, adults, to be seen and treated as mature responsible fully educated human beings, nevertheless, keeping in mind that we know nothing. All we know, or, our parents, sage grandfathers, kings of wisdom, state is that we know nothing of what we need to. We search and always get to a point where we understand there’s much more, we crave this, we desire to get away from our everyday routine that we have become so accustomed to.
As teenagers we, to be more precise and less subjective about this matter, me and her, used to disguise our lack of interest in having a rebel, regular, music listening, dope smoking, ignorant go with the rest of the flock teenage life and try to enhance, create an image of mature security to lead those in the dark that we knew what the hell we were talking about.
Every situation that we pursued and turned out to be wrong, we knew from the start, we knew we were wrong, but felt the need to back our own ignorance up. Maybe a need to show a certain firmness, a strong hand, but now I realize that we just didn’t know better and insisted just due to the fact that it was what we did.
There was never, or once, a situation were we just gave up in the beginning, this was the right thing to do, but never, I say and repeat and stay by my ground when I tell and affirm that we never, ever thought we weren’t old or smart enough to handle it.
But I am no longer a teenager dwelling in the never ending pit of depression and insecurity and the revolving vicious cycle of the cliché in the before mentioned.
I know after an experience, a thrill that shaped the person I am today, that we were too young.